back...

yup, i'm back from my oversea training on sunday. wanted to blog but i just simply cannot find a right time to blog? or was it that i couldn't find the right words to describe my feeling? maybe. two weeks spent oversea didn't help me to really calm down myself. i'm still haunted by the news of her patching up with her ex. over at thailand, i did exchange a few sms with her, asking if she would be free to meet up for a meal when i'm back. but the reply was a rather cold one. telling me that she find it ain't nice to go out with other guy other then her boyfriend. hurt by her reply, my mind wasn't really in the right state so i replied asking if she wanted me to stop contacting too, ya the answer was expected. she requested that we stop contacting each other. i guess i'm really stupid to ask her that man. must be out of my mind. hai.

everyday over at thailand, i would woke up at 3 am and memories of us would flash infront of me. couldn't get to sleep so i would just spent my time till the morning going through all the memories of us. over and over again for all the days.

i know alot of you care for me and have been worrying for me. don't worry, i wouldn't do anything stupid. thank for all the concern, i will take care of myself. just let me be myself for a certain time, be alone, let me keep all the stuff deep in me so that i wouldn't show you the weak side of me, even if there is anything for me to suffer just let me take it all by myself.