down...

Didn't know why but i'm just feeling down all of a sudden. I suddenly lost all my drive in everything. I felt so lucky that i was going to work for my cousin, i can't imagine myself looking for job over and over again. Even just looking for part time job, i lost the drive for it, what going to happen if i had to look for a full time job man?

I have a happy-go-lucky character, whatever comes to me i will just accept it, never will i think too far to it. Maybe that what she saw in me? Maybe is a good choice that she leave me? Cause with this character of mine, no way can i survive let alone taking good care of her. I guess i'm still childish ba.

I have a feeling that i will have a major break down sooner or later, oh god, i guess the break down will do good to me. It seems to me that i'm so tense up this few days. Like just down when i was talking to jie on msn, i had a small break down and ya, it did feel a little better after it...

I miss her lots man... Will the day the 2 of us get back together come? I hope so... i'm willing to give up anything just to have her back by my side... oh please... please let this wish come true... Haiz...