parents...

I had actually wanted to blog on this post long ago, but couldn't find the time. So while waiting for my lunch time, i might as well blog it. I almost had a quarrel with parent last week, to be exact would be with my mum. All this happened because of me working as a part time data entry. One cousin of mine was looking for me asking if i needed help to get a job and i kindly rejected her telling her that i might go chile with my cousin may. When i reach home, my mum asked do i really want to follow may to chile, i replied why not? And she was quite unhappy with it saying what so good about going over, did may really want me to go over, why not find a job with my diploma? So i told her that kind of job does she expect me to find with my diploma without any experenice and may has been saying it over and over again that she wanted me to go over. As my mother, i just don't understand why can't she put in a little more effort in knowing what i want?

After all those talking, my dad step in saying that i was rude to her. My reply was i'm not and they as mine parent shouldn't they spent a little more time knowing what on our mind? And another of debate on why i shouldn't go to chile cause from my brother, they find it going there as a waste of time. But what do they expect me to do? Study? Come on man, they should know how i always do in my studies, even if they don't know, i know how "good" i am. Even if i'm good in my studies, who gonna pay for my fees? And enough of those talking, i told him just let me have my time sort out what do i want cause the fact is i don't even know what do i want in my life.

Thinking that the case is close after a good sleep, i only found myself being question by my grandma in the morning. She of all is someone i cannot understand, yesh, she very close to us. But sometime what she say would let everyone of us wonder what on her mind. Last time when may ask me to follow her to chile, she would push me to go, saying that i'm young should use this chance to go see the world but now guess wat? she question what the use of going there? 1 sec want me to go, 1 sec ask me don't go. Can't really get what on their mind.

I have my own idea, my own thinking, i'm a grown up. I know what good and what bad for me. Is a chance for me to go around and look outside of singapore, i believe it would do good to me. Maybe i still can't made up my mind now to go chile or not but i believe it wouldn't do me any harm by going there. I just need some time for myself to find what i want. I have been hanging around for as long as i know. Luckily, i have a god sister adeline who been supportive to me, understanding how i had been feeling ever since the break up and giving me lots of advice... Thank sis...