tired...

I'm so tired... Tired of everything... I had so much to blog... But i don't know where should i start from... I felt that i'm at the cross road of my life, wondering which path should i take. Should i study? Should i get a job? Should i fly to chile? Should i stay there for long? I totally lost all my drive in everything. Maureen was right about me. She asked where the happy go lucky me... I guess, he's dead.. He no longer around. The one sitting right here typing this blog is someone who trying his best to act like him, trying his best to be happy go lucky. Yes, he seems successful in the day, but when everyone is resting late at night... He took off the mask and didn't even know the person he see in the mirror... Is there someone who can shine the path for me? Telling me which way to go? Will my fairy god-mother or the goddeness of mercy show me a way? I'm so tired.. Maybe i should just put down everything and leave them... Haiz...